Saturday, July 2, 2011

Wk1_Comment 1 to Jenney

Jenney Grover said: "(insert record scratch here) WHAT?! We are going to apply to present or be published?! I'm wondering who the collective "we" is in the "we weren't getting as big of a payoff as we could get or should get given the amount of work that you guys have already done." Because the "we" if that includes me would mean that my payoff of a raise, job advancement, etc could be sufficient for me and therfore my choice to then go into retirement would be my choice if I chose not to get published. I'm really caught off guard by this even though a peer mentioned it in a conversation last night after class (I watched archive today). In month 1 (and 2) it was stressed that we could if we wanted to, but we wouldn't be forced to publish even though we'd be fully prepared to publish if we so chose. The analogy that has become forefront for this process is "It's all fluid"(always changing) in this Alice in Wonderland world.

I guess I now know what a fish feels like when I'm fishing. Oh this pretty lady is providing me with food, how nice is that?! "Swim little fishies over to my line." *gulp* Oh no! There's a hook! Swim away! Swim away! Nope, I'm snagged.





I was looking into getting published or presenting at some point in the future, but not necessarily with this project. The lit review is turning into a community written plan and not necessarily something that I would put my name on as a finished product. However, I am reworking it this week to see if I can salvage my voice.

As I'm listening to the archive, this song started running through my head.






The chorus keeps running through my head, "whatya want from me?" However, as I actually listened to the lyrics it fits this process pretty well.

"Just don't give up I'm workin it out 
Please don't give in, I won't let you down 
It messed me up, need a second to breathe 
Just keep coming around 
Hey, whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me"


"Just don't give up on me 
(uuuuuuh) I won't let you down 
No, I won't let you down"

written by: Pink, Max Martin, and Shellback and released on Adam Lambert's November 2009 album "For your Entertainment".






1 comments:


Jennifer Geiger said...
I feel the same way about the "surprise" requirement that we publish or present! Prof Bustillos' comment about Full Sail not getting enough bang for the buck did NOT sit well with me either! The $$$ we pay in tuition is not enough of a payoff for the people in charge; we must publish so Full Sail can get their 15 minutes of fame per each of us? I'm really angry! This just rubs salt into the still-fresh wound of all the confusion with our group and CBR! It was only January that we all realized we had to implement the Apple CBL with our students, not just complete our own challenge (to ourselves) with motivation and social learning? For me, that meant a whole revamp and new literature for the lit review to include student-controlled projects as well as Web 2.0! I don't think I want to present or publish anything about my study, since I'm not even sure I did it well! I've had to compromise what I really wanted to try in the classroom with what seemed to be required of our project from FS. Why would I publish a Frankenstein of a project? And the GPS points requirement has really made me feel like I cannot speak up too loudly or forcefully in protest or to advocate for myself, for fear of being "unprofessional" and "creating conflicts." This blog requirement can help or hurt too. It has the potential to unite us in our dissent about the new graduation requirement, but it can also hurt (me) grade-wise, I suppose, if this post is deemed unprofessional. Jason, as you read this, I apologize since this puts you in a bad position and none of the confusion had anything to do with you! But I feel like no one listens. Jenney and I guessed early on that WE were being studied by Roxanne or Sue or someone. I now have empathy for the rat in the maze, just trying to get OUT! Jenney hit the nail on the head with the fishing metaphor. Now that it is month 11, we are definitely "hooked" and reeled in, and are somewhat going willingly in the hopes that it will just be over soon.

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